An attempt to try this again - re-new member

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Hey everybody

I started coming to this forum about 8-10 years ago. I thought I really liked it, and the greater philosophy of the community.

Then I stopped because I've long been generally incapable of sustaining contact with other human beings.

I'm trying to open a door to new experiences, meet new people, maybe make friends. I figure this is the obvious place to start.

So, about the current me: I'm a 27-year-old autistic man in Holstebro, Denmark. I'm trained as a lab technician but I work in IT repair - I've wisely specialised in restoring CD drives for MacBooks, which is clearly a growing market with great future potential. Sarcasm aside, I like fiddling with mechanisms, so IT is a decent fit for me. I previously tried to become a teacher, and then a lab technician. Needless to say, becoming a teacher is pretty damned hard. Becoming a lab technician is easier, but it's a high-stress job that doesn't tend to be made up of part-time employees, so I've given up on the field for now.

As for my personal life... Well, I've lived in social isolation for many years, which is part of why I left this site. I used to be a young man, hormonal and desperate, and this helped me overcome my social anxiety, but I eventually withdrew from it all, adopted a sort of Buddhist-Christian syncretism, cast aside hatred and bitterness (I will continue to refuse letting go of cynicism, though). Unfortunately, although I've grown a lot over the last few years, I'm lonely and depressed. Particularly, I'm terrified of girls. There, I said it. I'm not a bastion of masculine self-confidence. I own my being pathetic. I'm lonely because girls terrify me. Fate willing, I'll be able to disabuse myself of this terror by meeting some kind women who don't metaphorically bite.

Now, I'm not a total mess. I'm blessed with good health, decent looks, and genius-level intelligence, most of which is directed at thoroughly useless stuff, namely my last blessing: I have many interests - though few of them arise to the level of passions. I am a massive history geek, and I enjoy learning about a variety of things. I also follow American politics quite a lot, not because I approve of it, but because it's endlessly fascinating to me how decisions are made - which is divined through politics, but isn't generally a function of it.

Anyway, thanks for reading my little piece of this sub-forum. I very much welcome receiving messages, so please do write me. Even if you don't want to. All attention is good attention, right? And I'm sure I'm not the only person here with social anxiety, which for me, anyway, means that I often have to be cajoled into being social. Well, consider yourselves cajoled.

Emil Sørensen
Holstebro, Denmark
P.S. I'm breaking the "no signature" rule because it's my first post and I don't remember if I wrote a signature. Apologies.

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