I have a problem that comes off to others as indecisiveness, but today I realized that's actually not what it is; it's not being able to express my wants. I'm talking about simple things here: what I want for dinner, where I want to go for the day, what dress I want to buy. I can usually (not always) make an impulse decision and be satisfied with it if I'm alone and don't think about it much, but as soon as somebody else is involved in the equation, things get rough.
Sometimes I might actually know what I want for dinner or where I'd like to go out to eat, but something inside of me makes it so incredibly difficult to just communicate that. Other times, though, it just comes down to the fact that there are so many choices that I'm overwhelmed and need somebody else to make the decision entirely. These are things I had issues with as a child and quite honestly it makes me feel pathetic to still be struggling with it as a young adult .
Recently, with my mother's help, I've begun to do things on a precise written schedule so I don't have to deal with these situations on the spot. It works, but sometimes I just feel like why do I have to go through this just to be able to do things that I should be able to do without prompting or effort. I usually don't get myself down over these things, but sometimes it's hard not to.