Romantic or aesthetic attraction?

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I'm a fifteen year old girl. Before ninth grade, I had "crushes" on boys, but ultimately didn't really feel anything for them and was just trying to fit in. So I got kind of confused when I entered a school with a boy who I can only describe as exceedingly and uniquely beautiful. Upon first coming across him, I noticed it and went on with my life. As I went to classes with him, I'd sometimes find myself looking at him with no intent other than to appreciate his beauty. (No one seemed to notice so I think this was rare and not creepy.)

I told an adult tutor/friend about it and she agreed that sometimes there are just those who are very beautiful, but he'd misinterpret it if I told him, which I understand. It's kind of hard to describe, because I feel like I might be attracted to him, now, because I'm okay with the idea of kissing him, or more than okay, but I'm not really interested in reality about doing any more than admiring his looks.

And this is not explicit, I hope, but I told my friend that if I had to choose someone for an FWB, I'd choose him. Joke, I think. And I'm weird and he's not so I'm not really "hopeful" at any rate.

what you described sounds like aestetic attraction, and it is good that you realise that the difference exists.

now, in most cases, aestetic attraction precedes romantic, as this is the primary reason someone steps up to make a first move.

also, sneeking peeks to appreciate beauty is normal, almost everyone does it (although definitions of beauty differ greatly)

i am not sure what you are actually asking, but there is nothing wrong in your story; just the normal awakening of sexual feelings in general (a tad late compared to the average, but younger then i was when it happened to me).

you might want to try to indeed become friends with this guy, see if you can get FWB or an actual partner; you being 'weird' is not as bad as you think, everyone is weird, and many people actually like a little weirdness is others.
you are not like the others, and apperantly neither is he (for a different reason), which might be a bonus.

lastly: perhaps he is weirder then you think; it is not an unheared of comment that people with aspergers posess 'angelic beauty', something about them that makes them physically attractive with no real mentionable reasoning. jsut something to think about

Ah ah ah, oh man this happens to me all the time... I had a huge aesthetic appreciation (wow that sounds weird) of a kid in my 8th grade class. It's really normal to think people are pretty without having any other feelings for them. If it was romantic love, I think, you'd notice how he made you feel before what he looked like. That's how it is for me. Most of the people I've had actual, honest crushes on are marginally less "attractive" than those who I just thought were nice-looking.

I think it's sweet you told your friend how you thought of him. That's a pretty suave way of saying your feelings without seeming weird! I don't think you have much to worry about.